Everything I Need

I’m not looking for a warm embrace
I’m not looking for a friendly face
I’ve got Everything I need
I’m not worried If you’re coming back
I’m in a hurry Cause’ I just found out
I’ve got Everything I need
I’ve got Everything I need
So even if you wanted to…

You can’t save me
You can’t fail me
I’m back up on my feet baby
On the way down Is when I found out
That I got everything I need

I’m not looking For a hand to hold
I’m not waiting For someone to show
I’ve got Everything I need
I never found a wall I couldn’t climb
I never seen a well As deep as mine
I’ve got Everything I need

I’ve got Everything I need
So even if you wanted to...

It doesn’t matter If I’m qualified
Or if I ever learn To blow your mind
I’ve got Everything I need
I’m not looking For a place to shine
I wake up And I’m satisfied
I’ve got Everything I need
So even if you wanted too…

Not An Addict

breathe it in n breathe it out
n pass it on it's almost out
we're so creative so much more
we're high above but on the floor
it's not a habit it's cool i feel alive
if you don't have it you're on the other side

the deeper you stick it in your vein
the deeper the thoughts, there's no more pain
i'm in heaven, i'm a god
i'm everywhere, i feel so hot
it's not a habit it's cool i feel alive
if you don't have you're on the other side
i'm not an addict..maybe that's a lie

it's over now
i'm cold, alone
i'm just a person on my own
nothing means a thing to me
it's not a habit it's cool i feel alive
if you don't have it you're on the other side
i'm not an addict..maybe that's a lie

free me
leave me
watch me as i'm going down
free me
see me
look at me i'm falling in
i'm falling

it is not a habit, it is cool, i feel alive
it is not a habit, it is cool, i feel alive
if you don't have it you're on the other side
i'm not an addict...baby, that's a lie

Blame Me

I'm always gonna be one life behind

That's why I'm all alone

What's it gonna take to make you see

That we are falling apart

I wonder can we throw away the past

So we can stop the screaming match

I'm not gonna break down anymore

I've found my way to the door

I can see through both of us

It's an issue over trust

It's killing me it's killing me

To watch you leave me

I've tried to talk about what's really wrong

I see that look of discontent

The volume starts to rise and then it's on

That's why I have to go

Dealing with the pain is all that's left

Because we can not get along

You wanna put the blame on me again

I think that we have reached the end

It's your turn to watch me leave you

Unstable

I wanted to know who you really are

I needed the chance to stitch up my scars

I'm closer to you then I was in the start

Come dive right in and tear me apart

I'm trapped and we can't get along

I thought that I was strong

We are so unstable

In bed I'm strung out from your touch

But I won't give you up

We are so unstable

I wanted to learn about the dark side of you

You bring me down like a bottle of pills

I hate the way that you make me feel

I keep coming back I never get killed

See You When I Get There

I’m looking up
At the moving clouds
I’ve been hit so hard
This time
I just might stay down
If you were me
I would come back
To get you
If this is love
Then I don’t remember
You won’t find anyone
To treat you better
We’ve already been through
Hell and high waters

I ain’t sorry baby
Don’t think that
We ain’t done anything
That I’d take back
Go on pretend
That you ain’t changed
And don’t worry bout’ me
I’ll see you when I get there

I’m looking up
At the moving clouds
I’ve been down so long
But I still think you
Might come around
So I’m making plans
For when you feel better
You just might want
Someone more familiar
You won’t find anyone
Else to take you back
Now sometimes you’re an angel
But you’re usually
A pain in the ass

[chorus]

I need your love
Much more than I want it
You left me here
With another bad habit
Now you found paradise
And crawled to the shoreline
I saw a white flash
And then I saw the lids of my eyes

Broken

She said

Thanks but I'm broken

I guess

You must have misspoken

What a laugh

I've never been chosen by anyone

She was barely a teen

Hanging out in between

Just a part of the scene

With mercurial smile

And incurable style

She was only a dream

How's that

He didn't know a thing about

Making love to the kind of girl you read about

He said

I'm bound to be broken

My Daddy bet

That I'd amount to nothing

He won't let anybody show him anything

He was a troubled child

Had been down for a while

Always kept to himself

No she couldn't defend

He only wanted a friend

Now he's made something else

It's so sad no one saw it coming

The paper said that he hit the ground running

Oh yeah

I know I'm not broken

A little cracked

But still I'm not broken

I wanna laugh but I think that I'm choking on reality

When the world is turning for you

Don't turn on me

Who are you here to repair

Well I don't know what you mean

You could never resist

Glorifying despair

Well now it's coming to you and I don't really care

Well I'm not

The kind to insist

You couldn't have missed

We must co exist

So please listen to me

There is no such thing as human debris

Oh yeah

I know I'm not broken

A little cracked

But dad I'm not so nothing

I wanna laugh

I'm not joking

I'm unbroken

Oh yeah I said I'm unbroken

I said I'm unbroken

A little cracked it's just a token

I'm really not broken

What a guess I'm unbroken

Yesterday

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away

Now it looks as though they're here to stay

Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Suddenly, I'm not half to man I used to be,

There's a shadow hanging over me.

Oh, yesterday came suddenly.

Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say.

I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.

Now I need a place to hide away.

Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Everything

I can be a nightmare of the grandest kind

I can withhold like it's going out of style

I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen

And you've never met anyone who's as positive as I am sometimes

You see everything, you see every part

You see all my light and you love my dark

You dig everything of which I'm ashamed

There's not anything to which you can't relate

And you're still here

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking

My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating

I'm the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known

And you've never met anyone who's as everything as I am sometimes

You see everything, you see every part

You see all my light and you love my dark

You dig everything of which I'm ashamed

There's not anything to which you can't relate

And you're still here

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know

What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

Hey Bulldog

Sheepdog

Standing in the rain,

Bullfrog

Doing it again

Some think that happinness is measured out in years

You don't know what it's like to listen to your fears

Child-like

No one understands,

Jack knife

In your sweaty hands,

Some think that happiness is measured out in miles

What makes you think you're something special when you smile

You can talk to me, if you're lonely you can talk to me

Big man

Walking in the park

Whigwam

Frightened of the dark

Some kind of solitude is measured out in you

You think you know me but you haven't got a clue

You can talk to me, if you're lonely you can talk to me

Think For Yourself

I've got a word or two

To say about the things that you do

You're telling all those lies

About the good things that we can have

If we close our eyes

Do what you want to do

And go where you're going to

Think for yourself

'Cause I won't be there with you

I left you far behind

The ruins of the life that you had in mind

And though you still can't see

I know your mind's made up

You're gonna cause more misery

Do what you want to do

And go where you're going to

Think for yourself

'Cause I won't be there with you

Although your mind's opaque

Try thinking more if just for your own sake

The future still looks good

And you've got time to rectify

All the things that you should

Do what you want to do

And go where you're going to

Think for yourself

'Cause I won't be there with you

Do what you want to do

And go where you're going to

Think for yourself

'Cause I won't be there with you

Saints And Sailors

This is where I say I've had enough

and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.

A walking open wound,

a trophy display of bruises

and I don't believe that I'm getting any better.

Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring

and I'm thinking awful things

and I'm pretty sure that few would notice.

And this apartment

is starving for an argument.

Anything at all to break the silence.

Wandering the house

like I've never wanted out

and this is about as social as I get now.

And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you

cause they would never do,

I would never do.

So don't be a liar,

don't say that "everything's working"

when everything's broken.

And you smile like a saint

but you curse like a sailor

and your eyes say the joke's on me...

Frail

Kiss the sun

In your eyes

Love unveiled

I can't deny

Be not warned

Watch it fall

Mesmerize...

Close your eyes

and begin to breath

Something is coming over me

Lost to find,

and a soul to keep

cause you love me...

Give this one

On bended knee

Price to pay

Please wait for me

A trial by fire

A setting Sun

A love I've won...

Close your eyes and begin to breath

Something is coming over me

Lost to find, and a soul to keep

Cause you love me...

Inside, I wait

Inside, I wait

Kiss the sun

In your eyes

Love unveiled

I can't deny

be not warned

Watch it fall

Mesmerize...

Close your eyes and begin to breath

Something is coming over me

Lost to find, and a soul to keep

Cause you love me...

Close your eyes and begin to breath

Something is coming over me

Lost to find, and a soul to keep

Cause you love me

you love me

you love me ...

The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot

If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand. I hope you find out what you want. I already know what I am. And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again. And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am. I'll grow old and start acting my age. I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate. A crown of gold. A heart that's harder than stone. And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget. If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state. You can keep to yourself. I'll keep out of your way. And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out. It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room, when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds. So call it quits or get a grip. Say you wanted a solution. You just wanted to be missed. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget... You are calm and reposed. Let your beauty unfold. Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones. Spring keeps you ever close. You are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin. Standing trial for your sins. Holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.

Seventy Times 7

Back in school they never taught us
what we needed to know
Like how to deal with despair
or someone breakin your heart
For twelve years I've held it all together
but a night like this is beggin to pull me apart
I played it quiet left you deep in conversation
I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen
I remember I kept thinking
that I know you never would
And now I know I want to kill you
like only a best friend could

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to...

As if it happening wasn't enough
I got to go and write a song
just to remind myself how bad it sucked
Ignore the sun, covers over my head
Wrote a message on my pillow that says
"Jesse, stay asleep in bed"
Don't apologize (I hope you choke and die!)
Search your cell for something which to hang yourself
They say you need to pray
if you want to go to heaven
But they don't tell you what to say
when your whole life has gone to Hell!

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to...
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to...

So is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish
I've seen more guts on eleven-year-old kids
Have another drink and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield

Is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
So let's end this call and end this conversation
And is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say "best friends" means friends forever

Is that what you call a getaway?!!
Tell me what you got away with!!
Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish!!
I've seen more guts on eleven-year-old kids!!
Have another drink and drive yourself home!!
I hope there's ice on all the roads!!
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
then when your head goes through the windshield!!

(I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to...
(I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to...

Magazines

Laetitia, you destroy me, so I can see why I feel so lonely
when you and me could be forever perfectly perfect together.
I know.
Broken down in my dead bedroom, stuttering to pictures of you.
I'm sure that you can always see me.
I saw you staring through my TV last night.
So I'll leave my door open all night, in case you decide you want to stop on by.
Because you got to know who's been singing that song on the radio.
The one that goes...
My friends all call me crazy cause I stay up late anticipating,
and planning for the day I sweep you off your feet, I'd never leave you alone.
Laetitia, you got my hand shaking,
I'm begging you to please stop breaking my heart
because I got the feeling that you and I will never really get it on.
So I'll leave my door open all night in case you decide you want to stop on by.
Because you got to know who's been singing that song on the radio.
The one that goes...
Girl, come to me.
The only broken-hearted loser you'll ever need,
or I'll be left alone forever with my magazines

Enough

I've had enough of bein' nice
I've had enough of right and wrong
I've had enough of tryin' to love my brother

I've had enough of bein' good
And doin' everything like i'm told I should
If you need a lover, you'd better find another

Life is for the living
Takers never giving

Suspicion takes the place of trust
My love is turning into lust
If you get on the wrong side of me you better run for cover

I've had enough of bein' trodden on
My passive days are gonna be long gone
If you slap one cheek, well, I ain't gonna turn the other

Life is for the living
Takers never giving

Fooling no one but ourselves
Good is dying

Here comes the end
Here comes the end of the world

I'm gettin' sick of this universe
Ain't gonna get better; it's gonna get worse
And the world's gonna sink with the weight of the human race

Hate and fear in every face
I'm gettin' ready and I've packed my case
If you find somewhere better, can you save my place?

Fooling no one but ourselves
Love is dying

Here comes the end
Here comes the end
Here comes the end of the world

Here In Pleasantville

If you could see yourself
The way that I do
You might change
A thing or two
You wouldn’t look so angry
You’d know it doesn’t
Look good on you
So grab your coat
Grab your hat
There ain’t no saying
If we’re coming back
Cause’ something’s gone
So terribly wrong
Here in Pleasantville

Do you remember
How we’d stay out so late
We used to have
So much fun
We used to wish that the morning sun
Just wouldn’t ever come
But look at us now
We’re tucked in tight
We’re just praying for a little light
Cause’ something’s gone
So terribly wrong
Here in Pleasantville

I need to tell you now
As we leave
That it’s much worse
Than you would believe
And no matter how far
You think you’ve been

The beginning
Is where you are
So I’m using my last match
To put a fire up on every hill
And burn down Pleasantville

We never did learn
How to use our voices
We never thought
That we’d be heard
The only way they ever listen
Is if we sream every word
Caouse’ there’s nothing
In our walk
That just ain’t the kind of luck we’ve got
So let’s move on
Cause’ something’s gone
So terribly wrong
Here in Pleasantville

Health And Hapiness

Maybe it’s not
That I don’t care anymore
Maybe I just never did
You can’t say
That I have ever lied
Because I keep the truth well hid
Tell me what’s wrong
Is something wrong?
You can’t be sad
When something you have never had
Suddenly feels gone

I wish you health
I wish you happiness
But absolutely nothing else

I’m not here to keep an eye on you
I think you misunderstood
I could make things easy for you
I won’t
But I could
Does that make you sad?
Cause’ you look sad
You should be glad
For what you’ve had
And don’t feel bad
I could wish less for you

[chorus]

There is no distance here
To get across
There’s nothing to grip

Or get a hold
The emptiness you feel
Is nothing at all
Now nobody brake any bones
It could be worse
Yeah it can get worse
You’ve got your strength
And you have got your health
You should be worried bout’
Somebody else

When You're On Top

I need a bed
That nobody’s slept in
I need some air
Nobody’s been breathing
I need a thought
That I can believe in
Is this fog
Or is the building really burning
I need you
Much more than ever
I’m making new friends
But none of them matter
Maybe now
We don’t fit together
But you’ve got your arms around
No one but strangers

I feel fine
With the sun in my eyes
The wind in my hair
When I’m falling out of this sky
I’m doing better than I thought I would
But nothing’s ever as good
As when you’re on top

I want to wake up
And just start running
Into a ditch
Or straight up a mountain
I want to get
Where no one been gettin’
Make it deeper than hell
Or make it higher than heaven

I need someone whose price hasn’t been met
When everybody’s disappearing
By the minute
There isn’t anyone left
I haven’t meet yet
Well I remember
When they hadn’t gotten to you yet

[chorus]

Half way up
And over this rainbow
I heard a shot
Fire up from a ghetto
As I drop
I didn’t think you’d follow
Just didn’t know
The sky was this shallow

I need a garden
Where nothing’s forbidden
I need an apple
That no one’s been eatin’
I want to start again
Back at the beginnin’
I had a vision
That this feeling maybe has an ending

Masters of War

Come you masters of war You that build all the guns You that build the death planes You that build the big bombs You that hide behind walls You that hide behind desks I just want you to know I can see through your masks

You that never done nothin' But build to destroy You play with my world Like it's your little toy You put a gun in my hand And you hide from my eyes And you turn and run farther When the fast bullets fly

Like Judas of old You lie and deceive A world war can be won You want me to believe But I see through your eyes And I see through your brain Like I see through the water That runs down my drain

You fasten the triggers For the others to fire Then you set back and watch When the death count gets higher You hide in your mansion As young people's blood Flows out of their bodies And is buried in the mud

You've thrown the worst fear That can ever be hurled Fear to bring children Into the world For threatening my baby Unborn and unnamed You ain't worth the blood That runs in your veins

How much do I know To talk out of turn You might say that I'm young You might say I'm unlearned But there's one thing I know Though I'm younger than you Even Jesus would never Forgive what you do

Let me ask you one question Is your money that good Will it buy you forgiveness Do you think that it could I think you will find When your death takes its toll All the money you made Will never buy back your soul

And I hope that you die And your death'll come soon I will follow your casket In the pale afternoon And I'll watch while you're lowered Down to your deathbed And I'll stand o'er your grave 'Til I'm sure that you're dead

hello?
is there anybody in there?
just nod if you can hear me.
is there anybody home?
come on, now,
i hear you're feelin down.
well i can ease your pain,
get on your feet again.
relax.
i need some information.
just the basic facts
can you show me where it hurts?
there is no pain you are receding
a distant ship, smoke on the horizon.
you are only coming throuh in waves.
your lips are moving but i can't hear what you're saying.
when i was a child i had a fever
my hands felt just like two balloons.
now i've got that feeling once again
i can't explain, you would not understand.
this is who i am.
i have become comfortably numb.
okay.
just a little pinprick.
there'll be no more ahhhhhh
but you may feel a little sick.
can you stand up?
i do believe it's working.
good.
that'll keep you going through the show.
come on, it's time to go.
there is no pain you are receding
a distant ship, smoke on the horizon.
you are o'nly coming through in waves,
your lips move i cannot hear what you're saying.
when i was a child,
i caushgt a fleeting glimpse
out of the corner of my eye.
i turned to look but it was gone,
i cannot put my finger on it now.
the child is grown,
the dream is gone.
i have become comfortably numb.

See You When I Get There

For Pete's Sake

The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot

Seventy Times 7

Magazines

Real Good Friends

Enough

Here In Pleasantville

Health And Hapiness

When You're On Top